I used to think something was wrong with me before my ADHD diagnosis, and learning about what being neurodivergent was about only a couple of years ago.
Thank you for sharing this, I really understand what you mean. I don't know what kind of label could "officially" be applied to me, but I came to understand I might be neurodivergent a couple of years ago. Something I found useful for helping organise my thoughts - particularly negative ones - was to write them down in a journal. Nothing necessarily came of it except that it felt like my head was being emptied, my mental load just became lighter, and ultimately I felt better and less anxious because of it.
I'm now practicing writing about things that make me happy and I enjoy too, again making me feel like I can just get all these blocked thoughts and ideas out of my crammed head in the absence of anyone to tell directly. Writing also seems easier than talking sometimes, you can really take your time and change what you're saying until it sounds right.
I'm glad you were able to relate! Journaling is a really good practice cause it gets all your thoughts out, and sometimes when you can't make sense of what you're feeling, writing them down gives clarity. Def write about things you enjoy, as for me, it became a processing practice when I'm inspired by media I consume or whatnot.
100% what I get out of music. Nowadays, instead of creating, it's writing about it and studying the craft from the background instead of being the performer. It became my hobby, my expression and now my work with the right balance that it's fulfilling! !
Thank you for sharing this, I really understand what you mean. I don't know what kind of label could "officially" be applied to me, but I came to understand I might be neurodivergent a couple of years ago. Something I found useful for helping organise my thoughts - particularly negative ones - was to write them down in a journal. Nothing necessarily came of it except that it felt like my head was being emptied, my mental load just became lighter, and ultimately I felt better and less anxious because of it.
I'm now practicing writing about things that make me happy and I enjoy too, again making me feel like I can just get all these blocked thoughts and ideas out of my crammed head in the absence of anyone to tell directly. Writing also seems easier than talking sometimes, you can really take your time and change what you're saying until it sounds right.
Is this what you feel with music too?
I'm glad you were able to relate! Journaling is a really good practice cause it gets all your thoughts out, and sometimes when you can't make sense of what you're feeling, writing them down gives clarity. Def write about things you enjoy, as for me, it became a processing practice when I'm inspired by media I consume or whatnot.
100% what I get out of music. Nowadays, instead of creating, it's writing about it and studying the craft from the background instead of being the performer. It became my hobby, my expression and now my work with the right balance that it's fulfilling! !